
What I Really Want Is...But I Am Just Too Full Of...
We start our journey into this world without a ‘how to’ manual. What are we ‘supposed to’ want out of life, or ‘supposed to’ do with this life? These questions get answered in the form of social input from adults around us. We perceive these answers in our most formative years. We learn through observation of other people to create ideals, and perspectives about life, as well as the things we will want in life. We learn the things that are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ to want in life. We forget sometimes to remember that the people we have observed in those early years of life, were also not equipped with a ‘how to manual’ for life. These adults (parents, teachers, pastors, etc…) are also trying to figure out this life while they act it out in front of us as kids, and try to teach us ‘right vs. wrong’.
Yet, we go through a big chunk of our life without awareness of this ironic setup of life. Most of us are not taught to question what we are having modeled for us, or deliberately taught to us by these adults. Many people wander through life on auto-pilot, chasing after things in life that they observed their role models chasing after. They do not know why they are chasing after these things, or if it is something that they really even want for themselves.